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It's only when you're not focused on it that it appears to be solid. But when you look at it, it just breaks up. There you go. If it breaks up, it can't be too solid or substantial, can it? It's dynamic. It changes. But that which is looking at it, the awareness, that's what is appearing in, has that changed? No. Is that any pain or hurt or solidity or anything about it? The awareness goes away. So you realise you are that awareness. That's there primarily, isn't it? It's there before the other. And the other is changing, appearing in it, disappearing in it, just like those sounds you're hearing outside.
It appears to have some continuity though. If you're not fixating on it, what continuity has it got? Thinking of somebody else. Listening to the cars, for instance. Where were you hearing the cars from? Just hearing. It's like they're hearing themselves. Could you find a locality for it? No. So in hearing the cars, was the sensation in the body there then still? My mind started to remember. I remember mental gymnastics. It's there, but it's quieter. Well, have a look and see how substantial it is right now. It's quiet. And does it have any reason to be there now? Is whatever caused it the other day or when it happened, is that still going on?
Or is it just a memory now? It's something that's still going on. So it's when I think of it, when I think of it, you know, the emotion arises. So right now, it's not going on unless you think about it. That's right. Wouldn't it be going on if it was substantial and had some independent nature of itself, whether you thought about it or not? It's almost as though the thought of it has faded off, but it's like the physical emotion of it still feels like it's present. Well, that's not being reinforced about thinking about it again. The thought, the feeling and the emotion, you know, the thoughts can go, but the emotion has stirred up things in the body.
That'll take a little bit longer to settle down. Is there anything, you know, apart from thought, that's stirring up now? Is whatever caused it, is that happening to you right now? Or is it something that happened at work or wherever you were before? It's almost like it feels like the emotion feels like it's there, but for no reason. It's got no reason to be there. There's no reason to be there. There's nothing to stay there to do. But is the awareness itself in touch with it? And could you have it if that awareness wasn't there? I don't know what it's like not to have the awareness.
I can't answer the question either. Well, doesn't it point out that you've never been away from awareness?